Yeah, I've been gone for almost 2 months. Not that I've been goofing off or anything and I certainly haven't been on vacation. We have a graduation open house in exactly 7 days and I'm overwhelmed. The to-do list doesn't seem to be getting anything crossed off and in fact, gets more added to it everyday.
Yesterday was a really hard day for me. I said goodbye to the people I've worked with for 25 years. I'm starting a new job on Monday working at the same hospital, just a different department. So its not like I won't ever see my old coworkers again, I just won't be working with them. We've shared a lot over the past 25 years: marriages, deaths of spouses, children, etc. So these women are a lot more like family than just people I work with. One in particular, Kate, has become one of my best friends. We both worked the exact same schedule for about 5 years so we got to know each other really well. Our last day to work with each other was last Sunday, and I knew that all day long but I couldn't bring myself to mention anything about it to her, because I was afraid I would cry. In fact, when I left that day, I just kind of casually said "see ya" like it was any other day. And then when I got home I felt bad, like maybe she thought I didn't care. So yesterday I bought a card and told her that I couldn't say goodbye on Sunday because I was going to cry, and that I would miss her terribly. I left it in her locker.
And then I cried all the way home from work.
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